I wasn't thinking

[Kathy Craker]

I wasn't thinking the day Tasha left about the others we care most about. I came home in all my grief not even thinking the things dogs can sense. I never changed my clothes and thought nothing about the way dogs can smell when death is about. I brought Lucky in without even a clue as he searched the house looking for her. After the seach came up empty he sat at my feet lifting his paw up on my knee. He patted it and slowly just looked around as if to ask why can't she be found. I looked into his eyes and knew what he was thinking and slowly patted his head and said she is gone and will never come home. He slowly took a deep breath and dropped his head, removed his paw and went to bed. Throughout the first week he made not a peep but instead stayed in the garage and just wanted to sleep. Lucky stopped talking to me and never told me when I was suppose to go to bed for the old Lucky I thought would forever be dead. I got the call while shopping that Tasha was ready to come home. We went to pick her up and once again without even thinking I never announced her return. I found her a place of honor to rest and placed her gently on the shelf surrounded by family pictures to rest her head. That night I went to let Lucky inside and he raced with young feet into the house without missing his stride. All wild with exicitement he ran to the shelf running circles faster than his feet could tread. Lucky ran to office where she once laid her head and back to shelf looking at me knowing I had a secret that needed to be said. I called him and told him to settle his feet and took her off the shelf and put her by his head. I told him to calm now that Tasha was home she would never again leave this home. He checked out the box and looked at me like he was telling me he was happy now that she is home. He took one more hop jump while I put her back and went to his bed without another word said. The next day he awoke with a jump in his step and out the door he went to show his voice was no longer dead. The old Lucky is back and doesn't miss a beat and is now back to telling me when I am suppose to sleep. He talks to me again and lets me know what is what since now she is gone he is the king. Every night he comes in the house and goes to her side to show respect and acknowledges she is here to watch over us all and to protect with nothing but pride. Lucky knew without a word said Tasha was home, I never showed him where she was or where I put her to rest and automatically went to were she was placed. Makes you wonder where the rainbow bridge is and just maybe it is and always has been within our homes where they once lived to wait till it is our turn to cross that bridge. I think she is still in this house and he can see her moving about.

[PJ]

Thank you so much for sharing your heart felt story. It brought back memories of when my Brandy died then four days later my loving Mom died and I was all alone with little Jassy and she didn't understand why Mom was not getting out of the big red car and her big brother was no where to be found. I took her to where Mom was and she laid on the grave crying then I took her home and showed her where Jassy was and she laid there crying too.. When the vet came out to put Bandy down due to cancer, she said it was best if little Jassy was put in the grage so she wouln't get in the way. She later said she was sorry for doing it that way she was not thinking and little Jassy needed to know what happened to her big brother.
Now Jassy is at Rainbow Bridge with her brother watching and waiting for me and the other furry babies.
Bless you and yours

[Carolyn Turner]

My heart goes out to you as I have gone thru the same things. But like Lucky my Sparky seemed to be better once I brough Nicky home and put him in his final resting place next
to Rocko. Nicky used to go out and sit by Rocko's grave and Sparky not being around Rocko
but 1-2 years wherein Nicky was w/Rocko 14 years he didn't understand. Now Sparky goes out to where Nicky & Rocko rest is so amazing to me but he knows all is alright, his buddies are still w/him. God give us a heart to feel loss and compassion and a brain to have the memories of our loss of loved ones and he heals the heart and lets us keep the good memories. God Bless and keep you and furbabies

[Barbara C. Black]

Thank you so much for sharing your very heart felt story. Brought tears to my eyes. I am so sorry for your loss, and that you and Lucky are going through this. I am glad to know that you are both doing better. I miss my fur kids so badly that it tears my heart literally apart.

[Tracy-PLP Admin]

Thank you for sharing,,,I also think the other fur members can sense when one is not with us anymore and go through the same process we do,,,we have to stop and think about them too after all they have lost a Best Friend in their life too and while they are still here they do not understand why their friend is no longer,,,,After all they are humans just in a diifirent life form, I have always believed that and always will,,,sometimes I think they are smarter then the average human,,,LOL,,,Thank you for sharing this sad but comforting story with us and we all need to think about our babies that are left at home when we have to make that so difficult decision that one has to go on to the RB and when we get back home without our loved one and theirs too to remember to grieve with them and include them in the grieving process as well,,,because they know what has happened and will always remember their beloved friend and compainion just like we will and will miss them just as much,,,,But we all know we will all reunite someday on RB and that will be the grandest day of all for us and them......HUGS

[Marina Trofin]

I am sure the other feels when death is close! There are so many people who are saying "It is just a dog/cat", and I hate hearing this words! They are not "just", they feel and have the same symptoms a human has. When my Tess was sick, she couldn't breath that night, I knew something is bad, and I took her in the morning to the hospital. She had pneumonia and the vet told me to leave her there for some IV and x-rays; I will never forget her eyes, looking at me, I was crying and I promissed her I'll be back to get her home. That night without Tess was a nightmare for me! And I bet for her too: it was the first time in 14 years I left her somewhere, in a kennel, without me. Next day, when my cell rang, I had this bad feeling that something happened; and I was right! The vet started with "I am sorry to tell you....", I just told him not to do anything because I am coming to take her home. She was still warm, my baby passed away and I couldn't hold my promisse to take her home! In fact, I did, but how? In a blanket; I never covered her head thinking she can't breath......When I took her out from the car, the last breath came out with a noise; I put her on the couch, trying to listen if she is breathing, I thought the vet was wrong and she is still alive. I had no strength to take her to the grave for a while. Rooney understood that Tess is gone, he was just watching her on the couch, this time not trying to play with her. The hardest part for me was to put her to the grave and cover her beautiful face with the ground....I was crying and telling her how sorry I am to put her inside that hole..... I will never forget myself I left her to the hospital! I will never forget myself I let he die alone, not having me to keep her in my arms and to talk her like I always did. Whenever she was sick, my words gave her the strength to get well and to make me happy. My little Tess is resting now in the back yard and I am talking to her almost every day, I know she still is somewhere in the house! It is so painful to loose these dear babies! Rest in Peace all of them!

[Gina]

hugssssssssss im so sorry for your loss....
i agree that people are stupid to think animals are stupid .......my fur kids are smarter then some people i know.

[Ronda Fenlon]

Anyone who says an animal is dumb has never lived with or loved one. We have lost many of our 4 legged friends and horse or dog there is grief and sadness. Horses will call and call for thier lost companion. Our fur frinds show compassion and empathy and hurt.

[Jennifer Surdam]

Wow! That's incredible. I can hardly keep the tears from coming. We just lost one of our babies, and I have to say that one of his buddies was literally SCREAMING at my hubby when he buried the old guy. It was pretty devastating for us. And the others have taken a long time to adjust and get back to being their old selves. It's not like we've never lost any of our kids before, but this time it seemed to really take its toll. Thanks for sharing your story.
Hugs and BB,
Jen

[Angela West]

Sweet and sad

[Dixie DeBarthe]

I am so sorry about the loss of your pet. I just lost one myself. My dog Rambo had to be put to sleep. He was 16 yrs old. And got to where he could no longer walk. That was last Monday.
We buried him in the backyard and told him goodbye. And asked God to be with him.
He was a medium sized dog and was part Chow and Eskimo. We have another dog named
He feels pretty lost with out his companion, I took Bandit aside last night and told him that Rambo would not be comming home anymore. That he was with God. They were very close to one another. They were never to far from each other's side. I am hoping that one day we are able to adopt another dog. But no matter how many dogs I have. There will not be another Rambo.
Thanks for sharing.
Love and Light,
Dixie DeBarthe